Scared out of my mind.

I just did one of the scariest things I have ever done in my life. I put God in complete control of my life and I don't like it one bit. He told me that I need to go to Texas for five months for Youth With A Mission. I don't like God very much right now at all. I don't want to leave my family for five months while my Grandma is dying, but for some reason He's telling me it's okay. I don't want to go out of my comfort zone, but for some reason he's telling me to take a leap of faith and just do it. I'm already out of my comfort zone and I haven't even left yet. Please pray for me.